Reports :

-Original Message-
Hello dear I have so many thoughts running through my head and I don't know where to start from. I was planning this trip and I was saving money carefully for more then a year. I have never been abroad and this was the first time I was arranging the trip. I am not after best standards of living and I am not after sugar daddies, I am trying to be me. I am trying to develop myself in all areas and not to stay in the small town deep in Russia where there is no job, no money just for a living. nothing! If you don't help me noone will help me. I don't want to survive, I want to live. It is not funny when you have a salary two thousand roubles per month. I know that I decide my future. Ok, enough about that. If cannot help me, then I must cancel the trip and go back home because I have no any other way out. I wish I could come to you...I really liked you a lot and I guess there is something more, it is a sympathy for a man from a woman. I wish I knew that everything will be so complicated. And I feel bad that I can loose all my saved money for the trip, I mean papers arrangements, trip from Samara to Moscow, living here. I have never seen you in person and now I guess I will never see you if you don't help me. Sometimes destiny plays bad and hurtful games with us, but this is life. You are something special for me and I even don't know how to explain and maybe I shouldn't say that. Please let me know if I have chances to get your financial help or not. I need to know this as soon as possible. If nothing works out with my trip, then I will be here in Moscow for a few more days because I need to try and return some money from the agency and then I will go back to my home town....